I can’t wait for college because I can’t wait to find like minded people. I can’t wait to find friends that want to stay up all night and talk about life with me, I can’t wait to find friends that love the music I love, the books that I read, and friends that want to go on an adventure as much as I do. It’ll be such a great time to pack up some survival supplies and go into the wilderness for a week, or a summer.

Have you ever wanted to return to all of this? For the past few years I’ve been yearning for the wild. The only thing holding me back is the possible children I may have in the future. Without this hope of a family I can promise you I wouldn’t be here. I’d be out there, in it all. Alone taking it all in through every sense. Just thinking about the ethereal beauty of nature alone makes me swoon for the wind carrying fresh air through my air and into my face. I want the cold mountain water wetting my skin. I want to feel the earth while I sit and read a book and listen to the crunch of leaves and twigs under the feat of wild beasts and creatures at night as I drift off to sleep while looking at the heavenly multitude of stars above. I want to float in the river in the sun and watch the clouds roll off of the mountains and then tremble at the mouth of a cave when the storm reaches me. I want to feel cold, truly cold, and derive my warmth only from the sun by day and the fire I give birth to at night. I want to poke myself with the line needles and skin my knees on the slippery rocks lined up along the riverside. I want to feel nature. I want to sense God. I want to know myself.

Black-To-Silver ombré hair is the most attractive hairstyle a girl can have hands down.

Accurate representation of my love life.

Accurate representation of my love life.

Wouldn’t it be nice, if you knew the language, and had the money, to move into a small flat somewhere in Europe and just walk around the town and read and go to coffee shops and restaurants during the day, and meet new people and drink in pubs at night?

Wouldn’t it be nice, if you knew the language, and had the money, to move into a small flat somewhere in Europe and just walk around the town and read and go to coffee shops and restaurants during the day, and meet new people and drink in pubs at night?

Cannot wait to go camping sometime soon with friends!

I think fear can be a positive emotion. The fear of losing someone makes you remember how much you need them, the fear of consequences can make you make better decisions, and the fear of someone you care about getting hurt can remind you how much you really do care about them. Fear, I think, can enlighten people to think about things that they wouldn’t have previously thought about. Fear can inspire people to be better for themselves and others. Fear can remind people what they need. Fear can also be innocent, like being afraid to say the wrong thing on a date. This fear, if used correctly, can foster an important growth in someone.

I have two plans for life.

  1. The City- My city plan involves me trying hard in college on a subject that interests me but is also practical. After college I would likely go to grad school and after that move to big city and work my ass off to become wealthy. During this time of growth I would find a wife, have a family and use my earnings to provide for all of them.

  2. Nature- My nature plan involves me going to college and studying literature and/or philosophy and learning as much about myself and life as humanly possible. After college I would get a job and make enough to pay off my student loans and all of my bills. At that point I would work for maybe a few more years saving up my money while teaching myself and possibly taking classes on survival. After I felt like I was sufficiently prepared I would take half of my savings and write a check to my parents, with the other half of my savings I would buy survival equipment and invest half of that remaining money in mutual funds, stocks, etc, and run away and move into the forest and live alone doing nothing but surviving and reading only coming back to buy more supplies and send the money from my investments to my parents.

Going to find a place like this someday.

Going to find a place like this someday.